Thanksgiving week has arrived …
… sneaking in on those of us, like me, who are never completely prepared.
Followed soon by the Christmas holidays and in a blink this year is gone and a new one begins.
And every year I am shocked that it is already upon us , that the whole year has flown by so quickly, like it didn’t happen last year and the year before that. Anyone else out there shocked by how fast the years go by? I am debating lately if it is a busy thing or an age thing, this feeling that time is flying so fast and I can’t seem to slow things down.
One thing about age is that you really do learn to appreciate so many things you take for granted when you are younger. At least I have. And this is the week for it really, this time to celebrate those things we are thankful for, and counting our blessings . Although practicing gratitude on a daily basis will make you a much happier person, all of us are more focused on that during this time.
Often when I am thinking of things I am Thankful for , I realize that many of those things are the same things that make my life harder or more complicated. The things that often bring struggle and stress to my days. The very hardest things in my life also bring the most to it. This is never more apparent to me than as I wrote a list of Thanksgiving Blessings 2015.
Each day I will post one item from my list, I am only listing a few , instead of the one hundred, I could so easily call off. So I will skip the most obvious ones that come to mind first, not because they aren’t important, they are actually the most important, my children, my husband , my granddaughters, my siblings, my best friends, but because I really wanted to stretch that Gratitude muscle a little and think of things that I may not always consider blessings but that truly are.
So beginning with the most special of all….
Now this gift came to me like the ugly scarf you want to return to the store. I am not kidding, I am a little over 50 years old. I had plans. I had raised my girls, I did the right thing and was responsible and sacrificed and stayed broke and raised my daughters. I did not want to raise more children. I wanted to be the grandma, the one to spoil them and send them home, the one that jets off for the weekend with friends anytime she gets the urge. I took her to raise without a moments hesitation, after all this is my first grandchild and I love her like I love my daughters, but inside I was like a pouting child, kicking my feet, yelling NOT FAIR!
Now its going on three years and I am, for the most part, back in the parental groove.
But most of all, I look at her and can’t imagine her not being here everyday. She drives me crazy, exhausts me, irritates me and makes me remember what it is like to love someone small with your whole heart.
She sings crazy songs and dances like a wild woman and sometimes when no one is watching I dance with her. She says crazy, silly, off the wall stuff that her little mind comes up with, and I giggle with her like I am still a child myself and sometimes she says deeply moving things in a very childlike innocent way and I tear up and grab her and hold her like my heart will break if I let her go.
And some days she is a little demon child and I catch myself frustrated to the point I sound like I have Tourettes syndrome.
And every night I put her to bed, kiss that little face, and go through our silly night time routine of who loves who more and she says “I love you Nana, 100 thousand and thirty five and that’s A LOT!” mmmm Yes, yes it is …. who is more blessed than I to get the wonderful opportunity to be this child’s most special person?
I am so Thankful for this incredibly hard, incredibly life changing, gift.
Do you have a great gift that came disguised as a ugly scarf, that you are incredibly thankful for? Leave a comment and share with us. I would love to hear about it!
Watch tomorrow for the next installment of Thanksgiving 2015.